Last month I had a dream...
Last month I had a
dream that I haven't
been able to shake off,
and I've decided to
share it with you. The dream began
with me driving a car alone, and
there were some people in another
car in constant communication with
me. There were beautiful green
rolling hills, and many curving
roads. We were unable to decide
which roads were the right ones to
take in order to reach our destination, which was an A.A. event. The
road I chose left me alone and lost.
Then I found myself walking
down a hill, while numerous people
passed me by as they walked up the
hill towards their destination, l decided Lo find my way by myself,
not ask anyone tor help, and continue walking down the hill.
An elder member of A.A. who
has been sober a very long time
passed me by as he went up the hill.
This older gentlemen is
someone who I visit on occasion, because I
value his opinion. I called his name,
and told him that I was lost and
alone. He replied, "You know
where to find us," and kept walking
up the hill.
I took a few steps back down the
hill, then admitted to myself that I
couldn't find my way alone.
Again, I called out his name, this
time telling him that I didn't know
where to go and I was afraid, so I
would follow him up the hill. He
kept walking, but glanced back
over his shoulder occasionally to
see if I was following.
Upon finally reaching the top of
the hill, I found myself in a hall
filled with hundreds of A.A. members, many of whom knew me and
welcomed me. They surrounded
me with love. Then I woke up.
Okay, why am boring all of you
with my dream? The past 15
months have been horrible for me.
Although during this time I've suffered terribly with physical
maladies, the loss of my beloved brother
propelled me into questioning my
faith and beliefs, During this, the
worst time of my life, instead of
turning to you in A.A. for help, I
turned away, into myself and my
grief. I personally believe that
through my dream, my heart is
screaming to me to reach out to
you, the loving members of A.A.
The kindly older gentleman in my
dream told me that I knew where to
find you - and I do.
